Back in Maine

............and life goes on.......

We are all back in Maine and we are trying to get back into the swing of everyday life. This seems to be easy for everyone, except me.

I guess the worst part of getting back to everyday life is that when I am doing something regular, like grocery shopping, all of a sudden I have that nagging feeling that something is different....and then I remember what it is .....it fills me with sadness.

My Dad use to be terrible to talk to on the phone, he would say "Hello Dollin' your mother is right here" and pass the phone off. Over the years and I would imagin because I lived away, he got much better at it and we spent a lot of time talking in the phone. I am already missing telling my Dad stuff ....I would call and if Grammy would answer I would say I have a funny story for Dad and she would get him on the phone. Over the last few months I talked to him more than ever. Tom has heard me say hundreds of times " I can't wait to tell my Dad". Whether it would be updates on a sporting event or something funny the kids would say, or like when I got to tell him that I primed the furnace!! Being back in Maine, I am missing that the most....

The other day, Taf begged me to give him a buzz cut with the dog clippers....so funny! Well , I did and it came out nice....Patrick wanted his done too, so Taf did his and left him a mohawk....I only allowed it for the evening and it since has been buzzed. Quinn is way to smart and has too much hair to go for a buzz so he kept his distance. The boys were so funny, I took some pictures and they ran around and jumped in the pool. Taf was egging Patrick on with the mohawk....they spiked it up and everyone had some good laughs.....For a nano second I had that " I can't wait to tell my Dad" feeling and it was crushed by reality and I missed him so much that I cried.

Everyone says that over time I will feel better. I realize that that will hold true....but for today I am aching.